BLINDLY INSANE
It has been a year and a month since I have seen you
It has been that long since you've tugged at my
heartsrings because you're so dazzling
You knocked me off my feet
Made me fly into the heavens so early
It seems ages ago but just a year
I have been blind for a year because of you
I have seen no one but you
I have always hoped that every guy
in the street was you
But never happened reality's so cruel
Whenever I missed seeing you for a day or two,
I would get your picture under my pillow
Just stare at your face until dawn breaks
Stolen shots of you in the hallway or library
I got chances whenever you look the other way
or when you're so busy chatting with your friends
I had been addicted to you
Not seeing you for a day kills my soul
I had sleepless nights thinking about you
At first, it was just admiration
Liked you for fun to enchance the color of my life
But never wanted to become a victim of love
I was blindly insane and I fell in-love with you
I fell in-love to a guy who only knows me as a girl
A schoolmate, a classmate, a textmate, whatever mate
but not a soulmate.
I became insomniac thinking of ways to confess to you
I had so many plans but zero actions
I decided to stop loving you but
I can't 'cause you're always here at my heart
You're always there in the corners of my eyes
I am insane to love somebody like you
I am blind to overlook our various differences
Until at this point I'm writing this much likely a letter
than a poem
I hear your laughter
I see your smile
I feel your kindness
I am dazzled
I smiled.
Even if I wanted to love you so badly.
Even if I wanted to tell you and the world that I love
you so dearly...
I had to..
I will end this insanity.
I can't be insane because of you.
You're not mine to stay in my heart.
I can't be blinded forever by you.
As I end this,
I have to stop loving you,
I am not a coward
Even if I can't fight for you
I have to stop my insanity
I have to clearly see everything
'Cause I made a commitment above
The promise,
It's confidential
Just between Him and Me.
We had a deal.
I could forget my love for you.
Maybe not as fast as you think
But don't worry, I'll be fine...
Because He is with me...
NAGI
Thank you for being with me all this years,
I really appreciate your presence.
Even if you don’t have the ability to be with me,
Still, you are a best friend that no one could replace.
Do you still remember how we met?
It was one perfect sun-drenched day.
Coming to an end, it’s twilight as they say.
I saw you there on the cosmic almost purple heavens
the only one shining vividly,
and casting the most beautiful spark.
Since that day, I started to wait for you every nightfall.
I started telling you my stories that were mostly untold.
Because I believe that you’re the only one I can trust in this whole world.
Nobody is such as truthful as you.
You heard my happy and sad stories.
You sparkled brightly at my foolish acts,
You shimmered gloomily when I’ve been hurt,
And your light makes me feel great when I have nothing to hold.
It’s so sad we can’t be together,
You’re a star, I am just a human.
But someday when my page of life ends,
We can be together and forever.
Thank you for being with me all this years,
I really appreciate your presence.
Even if you don’t have the ability to be with me,
Still, you are a best friend that no one could replace.
Do you still remember how we met?
It was one perfect sun-drenched day.
Coming to an end, it’s twilight as they say.
I saw you there on the cosmic almost purple heavens
the only one shining vividly,
and casting the most beautiful spark.
Since that day, I started to wait for you every nightfall.
I started telling you my stories that were mostly untold.
Because I believe that you’re the only one I can trust in this whole world.
Nobody is such as truthful as you.
You heard my happy and sad stories.
You sparkled brightly at my foolish acts,
You shimmered gloomily when I’ve been hurt,
And your light makes me feel great when I have nothing to hold.
It’s so sad we can’t be together,
You’re a star, I am just a human.
But someday when my page of life ends,
We can be together and forever.
A Maiden's PLEA
I've been waiting for you to see me,
The girl who wanted to be beside your glee,
The arm of sorrow extended to me,
Because you ignored my only plea.
The army of sadness surrounded me,
The moment you did walk infront of me,
This feeling seems decade thee,
And this makes me live and see.
I never wanted anyone to be with me,
in every happiness I would be in,
To wipe away my tears in every sorrow,
And to share this feeling I ever had,
but you.
In search of a knight for his only maiden,
I ever did wish that the right will be me.
But the jinx is upon me, love will never
be with me.
The knight will find another maiden as he flee.
I've been waiting for you to see me,
The girl who wanted to be beside your glee,
The arm of sorrow extended to me,
Because you ignored my only plea.
The army of sadness surrounded me,
The moment you did walk infront of me,
This feeling seems decade thee,
And this makes me live and see.
I never wanted anyone to be with me,
in every happiness I would be in,
To wipe away my tears in every sorrow,
And to share this feeling I ever had,
but you.
In search of a knight for his only maiden,
I ever did wish that the right will be me.
But the jinx is upon me, love will never
be with me.
The knight will find another maiden as he flee.
•unbelievably fine•
Despite the pain and the unforgiveness
Despite the growing hatred
Despite the weakening trust...
I can still say,"I'm fine."
In the face of glowing neglection
In the face of luminous evasion
I can still smile and laugh.
Why can i hide the pain even if i wanted to show you dat im hurt?
Why can i stop these tears to fall even if i wanted to cry endlessly?
Why can i control my feelings infront of you even if deep inside i'd like to explode?
Why do i say such things like these even if i know it's such a rubbish?
But still whatever you say,whatever you do,
I will still be fine.
Despite the pain and the unforgiveness
Despite the growing hatred
Despite the weakening trust...
I can still say,"I'm fine."
In the face of glowing neglection
In the face of luminous evasion
I can still smile and laugh.
Why can i hide the pain even if i wanted to show you dat im hurt?
Why can i stop these tears to fall even if i wanted to cry endlessly?
Why can i control my feelings infront of you even if deep inside i'd like to explode?
Why do i say such things like these even if i know it's such a rubbish?
But still whatever you say,whatever you do,
I will still be fine.
